Monday, February 12, 2007

The Gods Hate Us

My beta was 8. That's pretty much a negative. It's worse than a negative, because it means I have to keep taking the prometrium and go for another blood test in two days.

I don't know what the hell I did to so offend the universe, but whatever it was, haven't I paid for it already? Enough. One of these days I would just love to catch a damn break.

26 comments:

tammy said...

Oh Binky, I'm so sorry. Damn, I wish it were not so.

GriGri said...

Oh, shit. I wish this was otherwise. Much, much love to you and Atomic.

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry. All my best to you and Atomic Boy. I wish we could use all our good energy to change this. hugs, teagirl

Ms M said...

So sorry, sweetie. It's awful when the stakes are raised this high--it makes any bad news so much harder to bear. You've been a real trooper and I will keep my fingers crossed until your next beta.

Keril said...

I'm sorry, Binky. Damn it. (((Binky)))

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry it's not the news you wanted. Blech and sadness over here.

KZ

Maya said...

Shit, I am so sorry. Ugh. This sucks.

threadkiller said...

Binky, I'm so, so sorry. Take good care of yourself.

pocket_lemur said...

well. crap. I'm so very sorry Binky. -pl

Anonymous said...

I'm really sorry Binky. -lc

cookiegirl said...

I'm so sorry. I wish there were something we could do to make it not so. Hugs to you both.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear this Binky. I've been keeping my fingers crossed and holding my breath for you. I was really hoping this was your cycle.
- bettyb

hope4future said...

I'm so sorry Binky. :-( Peace and strength to you and Atomic.

Carolily said...

Oh no, crappy news. I really thought it would work. This sucks. I'm sorry. (((Binky and Atomic)))

Anonymous said...

Uuugh. I have been thinking about you guys all day. (Home with the flu) So sad and disappointed. Steph

Katie said...

I am so sorry to hear this news. It is too cruel and unfair, especially after things seemed so hopeful. Be kind to yourself, my sweet. All my love to you and Atomic.

Pamela Jeanne said...

Dear Binky,
I only just discovered your blog on day 5 of my own appearance in the blogosphere. You are so not alone in questioning the universe and its perverse logic. For the past decade I, too, have tried to make sense of it all. I review my journal entries (not online) and hear myself talking in your posts. Stay strong. You're among friends. All the best, Pamela

Jen said...

No, no, no. It can't be. Oh honey. I don't know what to say.

A small but fierce part of me is hoping very very much that 8 turns into 16 with your next beta.

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry my sweet. Please hang in until the next beta, and take loving care of each other in the interim. Remember how many people out there love you.
- kisses to you both - jjb

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry Binky. I'm praying for you both. I know that empty feeling and it's awful. You are a wonderful woman and you will, one day, somehow to somebody (or somebodies), be a wonderful mother.

Katy said...

Dammit. HATE ambiguous betas. Grrrr. So sorry, Binks.

gerkat said...

I'm so sorry sweetie. Much love to you.

georgia said...

Aw, dammit, Binky.
So damn sad.
I'm sorry.

Ann said...

I'm sorry Binky. I'll be thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry, Binky. Thinking of you.

-geezlouise

huntsv said...

Binky, I am so sorry. Hugs to you and Atomic.