Our stay in Normalville continues. It's very normal here. So normal, in fact, that I struggle to come up with something interesting to write about.
I'm getting pudgy.
My tummy is pooching out in a way it never has before.
I can feel the edge of my uterus.
I look like a bag lady because the only clothes I can wear are my loosest, baggiest, fat girl clothes and even they don't fit me right, which I find kind of fun.
I've pretty much stopped feeling queasy all the time, but I still get fatigued.
I eat a LOT of Jello.
Despite my utter narcissistic fascination with my body right now, sometimes I forget, for a split second, that I've got a passenger on board. And then I remember, and I have to suppress the urge to giggle, which is a really inappropriate thing to do when one is trying a case or in the middle of an intense labor negotiation.
Tee hee. I said "labor negotiation."
See what I mean? Normalville. What a freakin' weird place.
4 comments:
Who cares if it's weird?!?!? You are having a great time! Live it up!
Goodness me, I can't believe I'm only now discovering your blog! You don't have any idea how much you being pregnant at 40 means to me... it means I still have some time left! Will definitely be visiting again ... often! :)
Welcome home.
Only people who have spent time in Heartbreak Town can appreciate what it is to wake up In the weirdness of The Forbidden City, sometimes called Normalville. Forbidden because it is the place of Happiness, of aspirations, of dreams. Of Concern that is normal lovingkindness and compassion, not paranoid - though all moms will tell you, a bit of paranoia about the Kidlet is par for the course. Every now and again, there will be a moment of almost hallucinatory power - you will squint, look twice - does that sign say Heartbreak Town, or Normalville, or...
That's because you actually never left. Welcome home - you never left. What has changed is not Heartbreak Town - it's YOU. You have worked and survived emotionally and physically, moved from a place of despair to a place of grace. Welcome home - you never left. You are partaking of the serenity of pregnancy, the gleeful knowledge that there is so much more to life than the self - for you contain a developing creature that will be the cradle for another self to take root and grow, find their own way through Heartbreak Town, on their way to their own glimpse of the Forbidden City.
The kidlets generally are ever so better than we are at seeing the Forbidden City.
Welcome home. You have had quite a journey so far. May the next stretch of road rise up to meet you, and may a sedan chair be provided when you don't feel like walking, and may the inns along the way be generous of food and drink, and may the pillow feel just right as you continue to make your dream reality.
Generally we don't forget Heartbreak Town - it allows us to appreciate the Forbidden City all the more, and change the name from forbidden to "Normalville" as in the normal state of affairs. As in the fact that we are all blessed creatures all the time, no matter what happens to us. As in Beauty, truth, and love.
Welcome home.
inspiration...enjoy your pregnancy and giggle often!
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